The uncultivated land

 I had selfishly prayed and fasted so much for God to give me what i thought i needed. For three years, i prayed and tried to do it my way, trying to ask it in his name, but never giving a chance to his will. Although i had it all planned out in me, i could feel a deep longing in me that i knew my desires would not satisfy. So for those three years, i had prayed, looked and moved from place to place without satisfaction. 

I decided to quit moving and looking and settled down to receiving everything from my dad. You see, him being so kind and caring, he was able and willing to give me all the material things i needed. I remember he would give me upkeep, pay my rent, give me money for small businesses when i thought i needed one and even sometimes send me money when i hadn’t asked for it. However, this did not satisfy me. Instead everyday i was drowning in the sea of stress and self pity and getting skinny every day because all that could not satisfy me.

It wasn’t until i chose to surrender to God’s will that things changed. God slowly opened my eyes and i could see clearly. He gave me promises of where he would take me and then took me through a period of training and preparedness. He clearly showed me that what was ahead of me wasn’t anything i had ever been in or to before and i had to let Him equip me for it. Slowly he aligned me to His will and when i was ready he took me there.

I can’t begin to explain to you the calmness and satisfaction that i felt when i got there-its indescribable-, but i can testify to you that nothing had ever felt like it before. I loved it. The peace in my heart and the love and favor i received from every body i met in that new place, a place i hadn’t been before with people i had never met before. All this reminded me of the story of Abraham in Genesis 14.

The bible talks of how Lot together with the king of Sodom and other kings had been captured. When Abraham heard about it, he went with his men to rescue them, which he succeed. When they came back, the king of Sodom wanted to give Abraham wealth but Abraham refused. He wasn’t ready to let anyone take credit for him being wealthy but all he wanted was the wealth that God would give him just as God had promised. I got a revelation that sometimes God takes us to ‘uncultivated land’, the kind that looks unproductive so that he can grow us from there and help us cultivate it and thus make us great so that when nations bow before us and call us blessed, no one will take credit for it but all the glory will be unto Him.

God bless you and keep growing in Him!