I have prayed for you

My heart sunk when the pastor explained the year’s guiding word.It was a two sided word; a bright and a dark side that we would live in which was dependant on the kind of things that we would choose. That is;there were conditions to be met inorder to receive blessings. The conditions were deeper service and deeper fellowship with God. For reasons that i will try to explain, i feared that may life would fall on the negative/dark side.

I feared that i may not meet the conditions because of my changed lifestyle and priorities. You see, since i reconciled my life  with Christ and most specifically for the past 3 years, my priorities were different from they now are. Like Paul says in 1 Corinthians 7:34, my priorities were having an intimate relationship with God and serving Him.For these years, most of my time was spent in church and church related activities. However,in the last few months and now that i am a married woman, my priorities have changed.

Since i got married, my priorities changed to a relationship with God, my husband/ family life, work and my service to God. The thought of this change in priorities is what brought fear in me because i clearly understood that i would not be able to participate in  church activities as much as i used to before marriage. I knew that i needed to serve my husband  and make my home just like a wife is required by God to do (Titus 2:5) and i understood how i was to serve God like before but i did know how to balance it all. I was afraid that i would fail to serve God deeper and this would result to my fall and thus live on the dark side.I got so emotionally overwhelmed for a moment and didn’t know what to do except to beg God for help.

I bless Jesus Christ for he heard me and he reminded me that i would not fall because just like Peter, he has prayed for me (Luke 22:32). This brought me joy in my heart, in other words, my heart smiled. He made me realize that he understands my situation and he has given me grace for it. He also helped me realize that what he requires most from me is a deeper relationship with him and obedience to him rather than works. In my moment of fear and despair, i had forgotten that i had not been serving God alone but God opened my eyes and i clearly saw that my husband was right there with me all along. We had been serving God together, in the same ministry and we still do, and i kinda had not really appreciated this privilege.

I bless the Lord therefore because despite my changed priorities and so much on my to do list, he is holding my hand and i am assured of a brighter side of life full of His blessing and favor. You can live on the bright side too if you seek to walk with God at a deeper  level, choose obedience and serve God fully in any opportunity you find.

God bless you and keep growing in Him.

Happy 2016!