Lord change me

Have you ever been in a situation that exposes who you are that you didn't think you were? Something like leaving home in the morning thinking and confident that your are well dressed, not caring to look at yourself in the mirror to determine how you are, then later in the day when you meet a mirror along some corridor you realize that you mismatched something? I know we have such moments and this has happened to me for the last two months i have been married. Marriage has been that mirror for me.

Its not that i wasn’t a christian when i got in it. I was and i still i’m, seeking God everyday and serving Him the best i can. However, so much about my character has been exposed that sometimes i don’t believe myself. I have come to realize that i haven't been as kind or as selfless or as patient as i thought i was. Sometimes it has brought me to tears when i go through these moments but i thank God because in these moments God has come to my rescue. He has taught me many things and my character has been changing. Actually, just the other day i was advising a friend that if he really wanted to know who he is, he should get married because i have learnt that alot about us is revealed.

I can say that God has been sufficient in these moments of being exposed.In these moments, i have cried to God to change me because i need to be a better me, what He expects me to be. In this season, i have been praying for this change and God has come along to help me. He has helped me to realize that He is like a refiner’s fire or like a launderer's soap and He can transform me, refine me like gold and silver (Mal 3:2-4) and thus my offering, my service to Him and in my marriage can be offered in righteousness.

I love how He goes on to tell me that He will not be silent until my righteousness shines like dawn and my salvation like a blazing torch (Isaiah 62:1). This means that He is ready to mold me like clay to bring me into that shape that He considers best for me.  I am ready and i surrender. It may not be easy, i might have to go through fire but His grace is sufficient for me and i belong to Him. He will therefore not let me go through what i can’t handle and He will be there watching that i just get refined well enough not to waste me but to make me better.

So marriage has been my mirror and i thank God for it. It might have been intended for the earthly matters but i thank God because it will help me achieve the heavenly requirements. Therefore i believe that marriage is not just for us but also for the glory of God. So Lord change me through my marriage and align me to your will.

God bless you and keep growing in Him.