A fresh revelation

It was on a Wednesday, a day that my girlfriends and I had set apart as our prayer and fasting day to pray for each other. So as usual, I had just taken my lunch break and had rush to my house which is 5 minutes away from work and was on my knees praying. When I was done praying, I stretched my hand to reach for my bible so that I could read a few verses before time was over, but I felt some resistance in me to read the word. This was strange and I was shocked. Never in my life had I felt that way before, never had I ever resisted reading the word of God.

 Actually, since I was a child, long before I had understood salvation or given my life to Christ, I was reading the bible. It had and has always been a close friend to me. I could completely not read it so I just went back to the office because it was getting late. However, that afternoon, this discovery was a great bother to me. I could not come to terms with this feeling. It was then that I realized that this resistance had been due to a feeling of doubt that I had developed. 

For some time, I had begun to have a doubt about the word of God and what I had thought were the promises of God. It was so bad that for the past few days, my bible study during my quiet/devotion time had been a matter of routine but not a time to connect with God. It was like it really did not matter to me what the word was all about or was saying. This I realized was as a result of the many things that had been happening or not happening to me in line with my expectations, which made me wonder if the word was real. So that evening when I went for intercessory meeting in church, I had one thing in mind, to ask God to have mercy on me and help me believe in His word again.

When I was praying that evening, the Lord helped me realize that I had been using His word selfishly, just to satisfy the desires of the flesh. I had failed to see the word for what it is for but had tried to align it to suit my needs. He reminded me that the purposes of His word is to teach, rebuke, correct, train in matters of righteousness (2 Tim 3:16) and to encourage (2 Tim 4:2). I had to repent and beg God to forgive me and make His word new in me and to transform the way I had been looking at it. I asked Him to help His spirit in me to reveal to me the real truth of the word (John 16:13).

This prayer changed everything. God helped me to desire His word once more and I can read it and He has been helping me to see it for what it is. I won’t lie to you, truth is sometimes I want to submit to the temptation of just letting myself take it for my own desires. But when I get there, I cry to God to help me and He always comes to my rescue. I am learning to read it and let Him tell me what I should hear all for His glory and His will and I have realized that it is not about what I want but what He wills for me.

I know that there are many out there like me, many who have been forced to interpret the word just to suit their needs. Sometimes it is because of our desperate circumstances or because of how the world tries to use the word. You may have used it as you want and it may have failed because you did not take it as God intended for it in your life.  I want you to know that you can start understanding it just as God desires of us. All you need to do is to ask God to forgive you and give you a fresh revelation of His word and I can assure you that He is faithful and He will hear your desire and meet it.

God bless you and keep growing in Him